Since it has been so long, let me update you about my life up to this point.
January brought along good and bad times. A week after new years, my Papa passed away. It was hard. Yes it was somewhat expected, but still, I miss him dearly. About a week after we adopted a new puppy. Her name is Zoey Ke$ha. Let me tell you, this dog is the craziest, most obnoxious, wild, cutest, funnest, happiest dog ever. I love her more than words could possibly express.
The next few months were for the most part uneventful. Nothing in particular sticks out.
May. Oh May. This month brought anger and hurt. Alright, here is the deal. There is this guy. We have been friends for a couple of years now. I've always known he has liked me, ever since we first met. For a really long time I was almost disgusted at the fact that he liked me. And then suddenly, after a few times of us hanging out just the two of us, I decided I liked him as well. It was weird and it was hard. I didn't really know what to do. One night he sent me a text message. A text message that I locked on my phone and just recently deleted by force. He told me how much he liked me and that he had for a really long time. He told me how happy I make him and how much he loves when we get to spend time together. It was a huge boost of confidence. I was so happy. It had been such a long time since someone had said things like that to me.
A week or so later I went to regional convention for my youth group. He went as well. We had intentions to spend the whole weekend together, and for the most part we did. It was a fun weekend.
A week or two after that was Relay for Life. He came. We spent the entire. It was really nice. Then it became night. That is when everything started to go downhill. He spent that entire night sitting on a chair with another girl while I was sitting right next to him. He then preceded to go into a tent and spend the night with her, my cousin, and his girlfriend. I was devastated. I had never been so angry at him. The worst was when he asked my best friend "what she was doing the next day". I was so incredibly mad. I ignored him for days. I had no desire to talk to him or be around him. He tried to make things better, but after that things were never the same.
I began the process of trying to let it go.
Summer started. It was one of the craziest, stressful, most amazing summers I have ever had. My best friend and I decided to get a group of our friends together and we put on a little show. Scratch that. A huge show. We worked for months casting, scripting, rehearsing, and it was all so worth it. The show went off great. We filled a 280 seat theatre with over 300 people and we raised over $1,400 dollars for charity. We had the most amazing cast party ever. Almost the entire cast stayed the night at my house. We stayed up all night playing just dance 2, trying to get into pottermore, harmonizing, swimming in our clothes, and so much more. It was the most amazing experience. The people in that show have truly become my family. I don't know what I would do without them, and I cannot wait for next summer when we do it all again!
This summer I also turned 16 and got my license. I love driving. It's the best.
With school starting came changes. I no longer saw one of my best friends every single day, which after summer I had become very used to. Two friends who I so look up to moved to the east coast for college. Saying goodbye to them was harder than I ever imagined it to be. It was also right before school started that he left. He made aliyah and moved to Israel...to join the army. I saw him the day that he left. It was a hard goodbye to say, but we did. He will be there for at least the next 3 years, and I will probably never see him again, but I will always remember the time we shared.
My sister had her Bat Mitzvah which was oh so much fun.
School has been going well. I have had my ups and downs, but for the most part I am content.
Now for the reason I logged on in the first place. Last night, I had a dream that they broke up. She came to me crying that after 3 years of being with him, she didn't know what to do. I hugged her while she cried on me and I tried to comfort her.
Foreshadowing? Maybe. He did just leave for college. The weird thing for me is that for the longest time all I wanted was for them to break up. I hated the fact that she saw him more than I did, and I could not wait for the day he went to college and their relationship would finally end. But now, I don't want them to break up. We have become somewhat friends again recently and I feel as it would be even more awkward between us if they were to break up. Maybe this is selfish, and maybe I am jumping to conclusions, but it is just what is on my mind.
However if this does come true, I'm going to be a little weirded out. That will ne the second time in the past two weeks where I have had a dream about something and it came true. My moms friend did tell me she thought I was psychic. hmm....
Well, that is all for now. Thanks for listening.
