Many things.

There's many things on my mind.

First let's relive friday..

We had our usual Friday dinner..well not really. I mean it was ussual except that ny ain't and uncle were there, my mom wasn't there, but you were. I wasn't expecting it. I liked it. It was just like old times. Then we went to movie night. Too bad you didn't get to drive me. Anyways I wasn't sure how I wad gonna feel. It was two couples, a guy who has a girlfriend, and me. I totally thought it was gonna be akward. But you know what, it wasn't that bad. I even spent the night there. In HER house. It made me realize that maybe things are changing. Maybe I'm growing up.

Next came saturday..

Two shows. I wad exhausted from the night before. First show. Got through it. Done. Went to marias for lunch. It was good. Then I looked over and saw my best friend upset. I was sad for her. The three of us walked back to the theatre. Second show was, how do I say it, interesting. Between tech booth dancing, tap dancing, or the people in the last row laughing, I don't know what was funnier. But it was funny.

Sunday came..

I woke up sad. Unvailing of my grandfathers headstone. I thought it was gonna be an awful day. We got there and I cried. I've gotten used to crying about it alot. It's become a part of me. I thanked him. I thanked him for somehow doing something. Because when I needed you the most this past week you weren't there for me to go running to. I talked to you every night before I went to sleep this last week. I asked you to help kobe. And somehow you pulled it off like you always do. I thanked you today and I will Thankyou everyday. I love you. Next we went to the odessey. All I can say is best buffet ever! In that hour and I half I ate breakfast, sushi, pasta, dessert, and drank 2 cappuccinos. Never been so full in my life. Went to the show, came home and crashed on the couch from all the food.

All in all it was a fairly good weekend. And all I can say is,Goodnight

Dear grampa.

Dear grampa,

Kobe is sick. He needs some help. Please gide him and give him strength to get through this.

I love you, forever and always,

Allie <3

Awful

Awful = a word to describe today.

Then end.

Did I?

Did I say the right thing?

Did I ask the right question?

Are you going to get the hint?

I don't know but now my sister is making me think I should have said something different.

Well..we'll see...

Please text back :/

Again?

So I know your supposed to cone every month. And that cool and that's cool and all (well not really)...

But do you have to come right before every show????! I mean really????!! This is twice now!

You better stop it or I am not gonna be happy missy. So yah please leave. Like now...atleast for another month.

:/

This time last year.

This time last year I was in Vegas.

Our whole family was together.

We were at dinner, celebrating gramma and grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary.

This time last year I thought 2009 was going to be a great year. Full of fun and excitement.

This time last year I didn't know that these next two weeks would be the last I would have with you.

This time last year I didn't know I was about to begin what I consider the worst year I've lived so far.

This time last year I didn't know god had a plan for my family and I.

In Just two short weeks you were taken from us. Just like that. Snap of the fingers and you were gone. For two weeks I cried every day, I still cry everyday, staring at the door, knowing any second you were gonna come walking through that door saying it was all a big joke. You never came. I'm still waiting for that day.

Today is yours and grammas anniversary. I miss you so much. There are so many things I wish I could have said to you. So many things I wish we could have done together. So many things I'm never going to get to experience with you right by my side.

Grampa,

I miss you, I love you, I need you, ill never ever forget you.

Xoxo,

Allie.