I have spent the last two days looking at colleges.

I loved Chapman. Yes it was small and yes it was this old little town, which was originally something I said I did not want, but I actually really liked it. First of all, they offer the exact major that I want which few schools have. They have sports, greek life, and most importantly each room has it's own provate bathroom. My friends made fun of me that this was a big factor to me, but it is something I really like! I love how I can not be in the theatre department and still audition for shows. I loved their sound stage and screening room, it was so cool. It's about a 20 min. drive to Disneyland, the beach, and the city which is not bad at all. It is far enough away from home that I don't feel at home and I don't feel like my parents would constantly come to check up on me but also close enough that if I need to, I can drive there In a couple hours. For me, it was pretty much perfect. A place that I honestly did not know if I would like, but after leaving yesterday I really just wanted to go back and explore.

LMU was a little bit of a different story. The campus was gorgeous. Much prettier than Chapman's. The weather was absolutely beautiful, the view was amazing, and it is near the city and beach. However, for the number of students they have the campus seemed too spread out. While it was very peaceful and quite, it was almost too quite. I felt like even when outside I had to whisper. They don't really offer the program I want and I just could not picture myself there. Everyone seemed so serious. I went today really wanting to like the school, but I just didn't.

This has been fun and I'm excited to visit other schools and get a feel for them. I'm excited for college. Really excited. But I am also incredibly scared. Not so much scared for when I leave for school, but for when my friends leave.

I have two of my best friends graduating this year. We always joke around about it, but it is getting serious now. They are starting to fill out applications and make decisions. I may joke and say "I'm going to glue your feet to the floor", but in all seriousness I wish I could. I know you guys say we will skype all the time and not to worry, but I am worried. You guys mean the world to me. I don't want to lose you as friends. I have lost so many friends in my lifetime, best friends, and I am not prepared to lose two more. And a year later when I go to college, I am so not ready to be separated from Katy. That will probably be one of the hardest things. You get used to seeing a person every day you know? Honestly, I terrified that once Katy and Jenna and I have graduated and all gone our separate ways that we won't come back together and I do not want that happening. We say we are going to move to New York and live, the three of us, in an apartment. but what if that doesn't happen? What if we grow appart? I never want that to happen. Never. They are like my sisters, my best friends, and I never want to lose them.